HEART BROKEN STORY

DAY 4 All i can do to escape my emotion to come up is just going to gym, think about other things. Today going to Melaka for a small company trip. I'm glad to get some fresh air away from the town. My colleague ask me, do I miss you, of course I do. Every single moment, I think about you. I don't know how long I can hold it up. Every time just think about it I will just feel sad, but at the same time i feel mad too. Feeling it just so confuse. You did't text me anymore. So do I. I can show up very strong from the outside but no one will know what is happening in the inside.  Sometimes i don't want to care so much about it is because I don't want to make myself so suffer from feeling that I don't want to have, it just killing me. 

DAY 3 The third day, i been thinking are we really done for everything, but unfortunately it is. We are done for all, for everything. I miss u a lot, sitting in front of my desk, without phone text, just feels like everything happened so fast. Don't know what u been doing, where you go, with who.  Listening to songs, all over and over again. Sadness just came up but I have to hold up my emotion around the office. All i can do is just having my ear plug and just listen to songs. lyrics making it so clear, is like taking a bullet. I have to face it what had happen and face it strong, or else emotion will take part to do the job.  Just can't imagine the life without you around, but really hoping you doing alright. 

DAY 2 Today, You texted me and ask are we done, I have said what i want to say. There's nothing about official break up or not, done means done. You said sorry, as again. Is not that i don't want to accept it, is easy to getting things back together but I also scare that i will hurt it again another time. It just been too many times that things like that happen. I have told you so many times about things like that, but end up either you ignore it or don't care.  All i want from you is just care about my feeling. You said to me you do care, but why if is care then things like that happening again and again. I have told you so many times about talking to other guys, that's the huge problem that I have already don't want to really care about because if i really do care, it end up with argument again.  You told me my love toward you is fading, you know what, argument is argument, it's mean i care a lot about you. Love will not fade after argu...

DAY 1  I don't know how lucky I am that I have met you. All the while we have been so much fun and happiness around in the relationship. Every time I saw you I just been so happy, is just really good feeling about you. Till you say you gonna go to Australia, I'm so scare of losing you that's why it brings me tears when I saw you.  I thought that we can have a very long journey until the very end, but is just making me frustrating all the time when we having argument over nothing. As today, the first day of breaking up, we have argue over about I going to meet my friends after we had lunch. I thought that you will understand after all this while we have been together, but end up another argument again. Is really heart breaking every time having argument like that and the thing that you've said to me I just can't stand it, so sorry to say. I have my limit over everything about it, not till you said i'm disgusting. I mean excuse me? we've been toge...